I’ve been talking about 2 hugely exciting things that were potentially happening in my life, the two things I have been wanting and fighting for, for the past couple of years. The first is our move to Singapore which at last is happening, so now for the second…
3 months ago I started writing (but never published) a post with the title ‘All I want is a BFP’ and another one ‘If I scream will it make me feel better’. After 3 miscarriages, surgery for Asherman’s Syndrome (scarring of the uterus cause by D&Cs) and then not getting pregnant for a few months, I was getting impatient and beginning to despair. We’ve definitely had more than our fair share of bad luck. Some people were even saying that perhaps it’s not meant to be, that I should give up trying and be happy with the one gorgeous and beautiful daughter I had. Even I was beginning to doubt whether it would ever happen, thinking we should give up.
But, something kept driving me on, something that had kept me going through the heartache, that would keep me going, even if there was more ahead. The desire for a second child comes deep from within me, it’s something primal, a powerful natural instinct, and I have no control over it – I never imagined I’d be like that! With my first I wondered if I even had a maternal instinct.
Just after I started writing the post, I got a BFP and I am happy to say I’m now 15 weeks pregnant. It’s been a hard and stressful road getting here, and it already feels like I have been pregnant for 6 months, not 3! But, so far so good.
So, not only are we off to Singapore, I’m going to be a mummy again. Hurray!