You may have realised I’ve not been blogging for a short while. Anyone who follows my blog will know that I’ve been trying for a second baby for over three years. I, like many women out there, suffered from secondary infertility. This is where you find it easy to have one child but struggle to have another.
My quest for a second child has been a long and often traumatic, costing us emotionally and financially. I’ve been to the depths of despair after repeated miscarriages, feeling like I was in a horse race I wasn’t winning, facing hurdle after hurdle. At times I wondered if we would ever be able to have a second child.
Well, finally we made it past the finishing post.
7 days ago, my daughter, Savannah Grace, was born. I AM SOOO HAPPY! I want to jump up and down and shout and cry (please pass the tissues).
My first daughter’s birth left me traumatised (thanks to some incompetent health professionals who missed that I had HELLP syndrome, a variant of pre-eclampsia, and put our lives at risk, but enough about that). We then both had a two week stint in hospital, with thankfully no lasting damage (other than mental damage). It took 3 years for me even to be able to talk about the birth without breaking down in tears. It was all linked to the problems I have experienced since the birth.
This time, I’m relieved to say it was a totally different experience. Last time, I was on the NHS in London, this time we had private care in Singapore, which was truly outstanding. Just goes to show you get what you pay for. Whilst the pregnancy was very stressful, the expected complications didn’t materialise at the birth. I had a planned c-section at just under 38 weeks with a general anaesthetic. And, although it wasn’t nice, it was a thousand times easier than the first time.
I am on the biggest high imaginable (until sleep-deprivation kicks in) and and have been able to concentrate on enjoying my new baby as opposed to worrying if we were both going to be okay. I’m hoping this experience will help me lay my demons from my first birth to rest.
She really is my little miracle!